Thursday, April 4, 2013

Dear Roger

Dear Roger,

Thank you. Thank you so very much.

I first met you through my mother. She would love to watch you and your beloved friend Gene Siskel battle it out on “At the Movies.” When I was around 10 years old I was invited to join, and I couldn’t have been happier. I had loved movies from a very young age, but listening to you and Gene discuss these pieces of entertainment with such great passion and intellect opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at movies. Loving film could be an identity. It could be a part of my life.

Starting with those nights with my mom and continuing until now, you inspired me to learn about film as much as I could. And you, as you will remain to be, were my greatest teacher. First, you taught me that a film cannot be judged on a singular scale, but on a measure of intent—a measure of potential. You could give 4-stars to a movie like Almost Famous and to The Godfather without any inclination of equity. According to you, these movies are critically different in scope and scale, yet perfectly accomplished what they were each trying to do. This is what made you so incredibly popular. You never looked down your nose at movies and deemed them inadequate in and of themselves. For movies deserving bad reviews, you looked at that particular story, those particular actors, and that particular director and said, “You could have done better.” Your negative press was almost a call to action, which arose from a deeply seeded belief and hope that movies can be great.

Secondly, you taught me, and the world, that film criticism itself can be a beautiful form of entertainment.  Now, I have not come close to reading all 10,000 of your reviews. But I can say with almost certainty that if I saw a movie, and you wrote a review, I’ve most definitely read it. With the amazing power of internet archives, I’ve gone back and read 100s if not 1,000s of your reviews. And I’ve never gone to see a movie without reading your review either before or after. You were my cinematic guiding light. Hell, the number of your reviews I’ve read of movies I’ve never even seen might exceed those that I have seen. But I didn’t read them just to hear your opinion about the movie itself. I read them to listen to your unique, insightful, and often funny voice. While I know you disdain lists and favorites, two gems of yours that immediately come to mind are your Great Movies review of E.T. and your hilariously disdainful review of North. Because of your ability to make criticism an entertaining enrichment to great film, your reviews will forever accompany my favorite cinematic memories.

Thirdly, you taught me is that it’s OK to love movies. Critics have a desire to appear impartial in giving an intellectual assessment of a film. But you were completely, and unabashedly certain that we will never be able to fully remove our personal and emotional lens when watching film. That’s actually what movies are there to do—they are there to evoke an emotional response from its viewers. A perfect recent example of this is your 4-star review of Secretariat. The general consensus was that this was a decent-at-best Disney movie. I myself hated it. But your love of your friend Bill Nack, the author who wrote the book Secretariat, came through while you watched it. Half of your review was actually about Bill and your memories with him. Your love for Bill and love of the story itself affected your love of the film. And you would argue, “so what?” As with many things in life, our love has nothing to do with rational valuation, and it’s OK let a movie touch us and then defend those sometimes solitary feelings to the very end.

And lastly, you taught me that a love of the movies is actually a love of life. When you underwent surgery in 2006 to remove cancerous tissue near your jaw, you lost your ability to speak—a terrible prognosis made especially terrible for someone who talked endlessly about movies for a living. But that did not stop you from writing. You took to the blogosphere with Roger Ebert’s Journal to write about literally everything and anything. Since then, it has been a daily check of mine to look for any new additions. You were awarded Webby awards and garnered a massive following of people like me who knew that you were not just a great critic; you were a great writer. Your innate love of story, of characters, of beauty, and of truth in movies was really a love of everything worth watching in life.

Last night, I forwarded your latest blog post to Tegan, as I often do, with the header, “We’re not going to have him much longer.” By this morning you were no longer with us. In it, you celebrated 46 years as a film critic at the Chicago Sun-Times and revealed you would be taking a “leave of presence.” That little crack in your leg bone was actually your cancer that never really left. But you assured us you would still be here, working on reviews of “only the movies I want to review” and the roll-out of Ebert Digital. But I think you knew. And you said good-bye in the only way you knew how—by telling us that we shouldn't worry and ending with “I’ll see you at the movies.”

Roger, we won’t see you at the movies anymore. But I promise—you will always be with us.

Your gracious fan,
Tommy